Little Blue Lines
In 2015 I wrote a blog describing the anxiety of trying to grow a baby inside me after failing so very miserably at the previous two attempts. Three years later I was looking for a new writing project and rediscovered the blog, I was overwhelmed by the intensity of the feelings and realised this was a story that needed telling; a silence (that I still felt the weight of and) that needed breaking.
During Baby Loss Awareness Week 2018 I arranged a first reading of Little Blue Lines, a play about a woman who is on the verge of being broken by society’s expectations of her body, striving to be happy on her own terms. I invited members of the baby loss and health care community who said it was authentic, believable and relevant. Other guests found it heartbreakingly funny and important. I was struck by how much of the information in the play was completely new to the audience and actors, and my initial intention with the play – to raise awareness about miscarriage - was boosted.
In the summer of 2019 my first radio play was shortlisted at Radio 4 for the prestigious slot known as the ’15 minute drama’ (five x 15 minute episodes aired twice a day at peak times). In November I had the wonderful news that it has been accepted and is currently scheduled for transmission in October 2020. I am very excited to be able to share a story so important to me - and that I hope will resonate with thousands of listeners around the country - on such a fantastic platform and scale.
Amy has suffered three miscarriages in three years. The routine words of comfort have grown tiresome, she does not feel ‘normal’ anymore and Mother Nature can bugger off.
Around a quarter of a million women in the UK miscarry each year, the majority of those miscarriages happen in the first twelve weeks of pregnancy. Little Blue Lines charts the daily slog of miscarrying, the slow torture of recurrent miscarriage and the consequences of leaving mental health conditions unrecognised and untreated. It exposes a secret sisterhood going through this in silence (lovely women, shit initiation process); the need to break that silence and the reasons why this is still such a hard thing to do.
To learn more about my experience of miscarriage you can read an article I wrote for the Genesis Research Trust last year, or listen to This Is Strong, a podcast I recorded with Nicky Vincent during Baby Loss Awareness Week 2019.